LISTEN WITH YOUR HEART
Seok Teng
Someone who is afraid of aging,who wants to meet guizhu and suju face-to-face,who desires to travel ard the world, who aspires to be a thinker,who wishes to be as intelligent and beautiful as always,who is so thickskinned and crappy,who just wants to stay alive-happy and loved
The happiest person does not necessarily have the best of everything. They just make the best out of everything.
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Thursday, December 8, 2011, 9:33 PM
it has been so long since i last blogged. rmb that i said i wanted to blog something heavy.. well, i sort of lose the urge.it was about a funeral i attended. about months ago, i still said i was lucky i didnt have to experience the grief of losing a loved one. though i didnt exactly lose someone very dear to me, my cousin lost her beloved uncle due to liver cancer. her dad was a brave soldier, fighting against the disease alone as he didnt want to worry his family members. in my memory, he is a very loving father who cared very much about his only daughter and wife. even though my cousin and aunt used to say it is very 'annoying' that he kept calling to know their whereabouts or asking have they had their meals, they knew my uncle did it out of concern. and within weeks after his second chemo, his condition deteriorated. when i saw him in the hospital, i got a shock. the man i used to see walking around coffeeshop, drinking his kopi, was lying there, so thin so weak. he cant even talk and could only groan in pain. it was then i truly realise that life is unpredictable (no matter how cliche it is). his funeral was a simple one. although it wasn't necessary, my sis and I decided to help out in the funeral wake. it was then i see the true face of some ppl. i wun specifically state wad it was but it was just disheartening. empathy is wad we shld have, not apathy. esp if the person is ur closed relative. when my uncle was cremated, i dunno y but i broke down just like other ppl who were present. but i will never be able to understand the grief my cousin n aunt had.
enuf of such heavy emotional stuff..
holiday is here. this time round, finals wasnt difficult which actually made things worst. well, academic life is as such. no point harping and thinking too much abt them=)
days after finals were rather busy too! haha... went out almost everyday which is equivalent to a big hole in my pocket=((( but im happy tt im spending more time with my coursemates. even went singing k with them. still, im going attachment next sem and many of them will be out for either exchange or attachment too. so it will be like year 4 when we meet again.
YEAR 4!!! OMG. it means GRADUATION! AHAHAHAH... NOOOOOOO!!!!! (haha, so hysterical)
by then, many will be working or further their studies. i sort of have a plan in mind alr. n certainly, i hope everything will go according to my plan=) for those who are still confused abt ur future, i guess it wun hurt to actually spend some time thinking abt that. it is really better to have a goal, or at least, a plan in mind=)
happy birthday maknae! haha... had great fun again with the girls. esp since we wun be able to see each other till next year thanks to mayyee! ;p everyone has finally turned 21, a significant milestone in our life. from here, i sincerely hope we will be able to spend another 21 years, perhaps together with all our husband and kids by then:) haha..
potato will be leaving my hse tomorrow.
1.5 years alr. from 7 months to 2 years old. from crawling to walking to running. frm crying to gibberish to talking human language (hahas).
it is a lie if i said i wun miss u. though i often complain how noisy u are, how naughty u are, how irritating u are, how much i prefer sarah over u... i will miss ur cries, ur antics, n esp u calling me 'jiejie'.
during this exam period, i kept complaining how irritating u r to my friends cos u kept crying and throwing tantrums over the most trivial matters. but i wun also not forget how u relieve my stress. everytime when im bored with studying, i will come to u, play and tease u. n u never fail to entertain me. hahas... so even after u leave us, i still hope u will rmb to shout 'jiejie' when u see me on streets next time.
When you are young (though u are still young, hahas)...
When you look lost (that's how u got ur name 'potato')...
When you are out (one of ur happiest moments beside eating)...
When you are so naughty...
When you are so lazy...
and then hardworking...
When you are sad...
and of cos when you smile...
(aww... i seriously hate my mum for babysitting babies. separate the baby frm us when we have developed attachment for each other)
i ran out of wad to write alr... so guess i will be back for a post after my korea trip^^
KOREA, HERE I COME! SUPER JUNIOR, WAIT FOR ME!